I missed the train to Redfern this morning, so i caught a train to Central and then bussed it to uni from there. When the train stopped at central i was unexpectedly and all of a sudden flooded with memories of you. I remembered the time you held me in your arms on platform 23, because it was cold, that day we met up with your cousins to go to pancakes on the rocks.
Then, at uni i walked past this guy who was wearing exactly what you would've been wearing if you were there--he had on his black rabiens, with those cute funny shorts like you always wear, and a cool t-shirt. He looked just like you, only he didn't have a nice chocolate skin like yours.
It made me miss you.
So, after uni i decided to buy that jacket i've been thinking about buying for the past week, and so i got on a bus and went to the Westfields on Pitt Street. Right as i turned around the corner, i was met with the sight of the Centrepoint tower. You took me there for my birthday last year, and we had two helpings of ice cream with sprinkles. It was so romantic. Then i walked past the 5 story Woolies we went to before that, and past the gloria jeans cafe where we shared a large hot chocolate. It was too much. I could not turn any corner in the city without being reminded of you. Whyyy.
I saw many beamers today too. Did you know that EVERY time i see a beamer i think of you?There's not one time that i don't think of you. Remember that time you let me drive your beamer? :) We went to bicentennial park and sat at that white picnic table... You know, I always loved driving around with you. Sitting in the front seat holding your hand. Even though you lost your licence that time, i still think you're the best driver in the world. I've always thought that.
Sigh.I got home and was so tired that i decided to take a nap. So i went to my room to lie down and i lay on my bed and the big teddy bear you gave me for our first christmas together was lying right next to me. It kind of makes me laugh remembering how you looked when you sneakily walked into my house through the back door carrying this giant bag with the teddy in :) And then we went to the aquatic centre to swim and we only just had enough money to get in and we forgot about paying for parking so when we left we had to dig around to find money in your car :) haha. Good times...
I'm so tired but i can't sleep; i really just needed to get this all off my chest. I wish you would just go away, because i can't handle it right now. You may be in Melbourne, but my memories of you aren't.. they're still here.. and i'm reminded of you on a daily basis. I really don't know how to deal with all of this. You can break up with someone but it doesn't mean that it's easy. I thought i'd be over it in a couple of months, but it still hurts and i still miss you sometimes and i still wish everything would've worked out between us.
