Had a good week :)

Ahhh there's just so much study going on for HSC right now and i need an escape! Thank goodness for blogging :)

Today i had so much fun at work; i absolutely love my job. Jason wasn't there though because he was sick and in the hospital :( I really hope everything is ok and that he gets better soon! He is seriously so much fun to work with and I think it's so funny how he always says "Naaat, why can't you be Asian?!" LOL. I hope he gets better and makes it to work next week because he was supposed the bring the topic of the day today! Anyway. Today i got so much practise making coffees! I made so many that when i close my eyes i just see the coffee grinder, the milk twirling around in the jug and all the patterns i want to make. I am actually quite proud to say that i've perfected my hot chocolate :D It's so exciting! Man i love my job.

So for english right, one of my related texts is an advertisement from a Dove campaign for real beauty (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IHqzlxGGJFo&list=FLdhRwTz8RBHkRQO1wXpNwzg&index=7). The first time i watched it, i was horrified. literally. It was pretty confronting to realise that all the advertisements we see around us are idealistic and encourage us to be something we can never be; we can't just photoshop ourselves before we walk out the door every morning! The media tells us who to be, and it's not even real. It's kinda scary but i guess that's how they get people to feel the need to buy their products. Anyway. Just watching this has made me grateful that i accept myself for who i am, and don't have to hide behind make-up, or get caught up in a always-conscious mindset filled with worrying about what i look like and what others think of me, constantly trying to meet the world's expectations for me.

I just finished eating dinner and i'm rolling my left-over peas on the floor and james, my kitty cat, is chasing after them and eating them. it's sooo cuuute! This is us two (isn't he just the cutest kitty out?!)

Ohh, and on tuesday i went out with a friend to watch "Abduction" right (with Taylor Lautner playing the lead role--which is not the reason i went to see it... :P) and it was ONE OF THE BEST MOVIES I'VE EVER SEEN. I absolutely loveed it, even though Kozlow was the shiftiest dude out; he really creeped me out because he looks like a pedophile :'( ...

Anyway, there were so many things i initially wanted to write about, but they seem to have escaped my mind. I've had a good week :) I'm really happy with all the things i've accomplished.

Don't forget about me

There is not a day that has gone by since you left that i haven't thought about you. I don't know why i haven't forgotten you. Maybe it's because you've made me happy every time i've hung out with you, maybe because of the fact that you're so open minded and accepting of other people and their beliefs, maybe because you would often a time remind me of how amazing and cute i was, maybe because you wanted to do the things that i like to do, or maybe even because you weren't afraid to come with me to church and see the things that make me happy. Sometimes i come home from a long day and just sit in my car in the dark, looking up at the stars and listening to the song i sang for you that night. It makes me smile, that was an amazing night.

I can't help but wonder how you could've forgotten about me already, after all the time we spent together and the fun times we had. I can't help but wonder why you only occasionally reply to my texts or emails, or why you couldn't even be bothered to take initiative and text, facebook or email me first. Don't I mean anything to you? If you're not making the effort to stay in touch then I'm obviously not that important to you.

I don't know what to do. I don't know why i bother texting you or emailing you photos from my formal and graduation. You don't appreciate the effort i make, so why should i wait for your replies, wondering if i even mean anything to you. I'm just going to stop talking to you until you show me you're ready to make the effort to be my friend.

"Don't forget about me, miss Payze"

I haven't forgotten about you, but it seems that you've forgotten about me.