If maybe is what you want...

Doubt, doubt, doubt--It never works out.
what was felt in the moment is what you should count.

It was definitely you, but now it can't be--
i need a boy who actually attends seminary,
who will ensure my true happiness for all of eternity,
And serve the Lord a million times infinity...

You make it difficult for yourself
when you assume what i think.
I want you to be happy,
but the assumptions you make, make your world stink.

I never regret what we once felt.
It was all good and beautiful;
Your love made me melt.
A good melt, though.
A comfortable melt...

But i now see why the age was put in place--
so that we wouldn't have to deal with these feelings we face.
If you were older and this situation arose,
You would more easily be able to deal with your woes.

Don't beat yourself up about me,
you've got to make yourself happy...
I wasn't the only one doing the "leading on",
i was dropped too, you know.

Too many nights spent crying over you,
but i'm glad those nights are done and through.
I loved you once, i really did,
And i don't deny what i felt--it was true.

But just because things are different now,
It doesn't mean you have to say "chao"...
I'm right here! I can be your friend.
But I guess it's all up to you in the end.

It doesn't have to be a maybe.
You can choose what it is.

A prophet once said...

“Man, I say, as the offspring of God,
is the greatest of all his creations.
He is greater than the moon, the sun,
and the stars, which are the work
of the fingers of God”

I guess this means that each person
is a VIP to God and we need to
treat them with respect and love and
not be judgemental towards them.

Hunny i'm trying so hard not to be judgemental,
but you're making it so difficult...

"Be Glad Your Nose is on Your Face"

Be glad your nose is on your face,
not pasted on some other place,
for if it were where it is not,
you might dislike your nose a lot.

Imagine if your precious nose
were sandwiched in between your toes,
that clearly would not be a treat,
for you'd be forced to smell your feet.

Your nose would be a source of dread
were it attached atop your head,
it soon would drive you to despair,
forever tickled by your hair.

Within your ear, your nose would be
an absolute catastrophe,
for when you were obliged to sneeze,
your brain would rattle from the breeze.

Your nose, instead, through thick and thin,
remains between your eyes and chin,
not pasted on some other place--
be glad your nose is on your face!

                   -- Jack Prelutsky

If only you believed

Baby, if only you believed,

This could be ours for eternity...
























...A happily ever after...

Just take a step

I'm scared of many things:
Spiders
Balloons
Toast popping out of toasters.
Motorbikes
Pedophiles
Big rollercoasters.
Airplanes
Outerspace
Natural disaters.
Being in tight spaces
Passing out
Clowns in all shapes and sizes.
High places
driving at night
filling up at petrol stations.
Singing in public
Speaking on the phone
Having to deal with my own blood.
Darkness
Change
Walking past people who do drugs.
Horror movies
Dead people
Shocking on plugs.
Male P-Plate drivers
Getting serious injuries
Any kinds of bugs.
Not fitting in
Being lonely
Getting mugged.

All of these i am afraid of, But you are not on this list.
You shouldn't be afraid either, kid.
Sometimes things are easier than they seem if you just give it a shot or two. And you'll find that when you move out of you're comfort zone and take that first step into the nervousness, you'll eventually realise that it's possible to take down people's walls and get close enough to know them and get to know who they really are.

Fear of the unknown: Common, though restrictive at times.
Partaking of the unknown can open doors to new, amazing worlds
which would in no wise be found if the comfort zone was not left
unattended for just a short amount of time.

Just take that step. Be Brave.
It's not as bad as you think.
I promise.

On search for her happy place

Behind all the bravado

is a scared, ever so vulnerable
little girl who just wants to
run away from the world
and find a quiet place to hide.

Could this be her happy place?

Possibly.

If such a place even exists.


She can not fathom into which
direction she should travel on
search of her happy place.
Her possibly-could-be happy place
moves ever so rapidly from
one place to the next;
leaving her confused and
unaccomplished.

What she thinks is her
happy place
is inviting and attractive;
but what she doesn't understand
is that what she thinks her
happy place is,
is actually a lure--
a lure that, when she comes close enough,
GRABS HER
DRAGS HER
to an unhappy place.

After much struggling
she finally gets out.
She is
empowered
determined
She resorts to stay away.
At the same time though, she is
vulnerable, weak.
She is once again fooled by the
extremely smart, beautiful one-of-a-kind lure.
Like a child enthralled by shiny objects,
she once again gets close,
close enough to touch.
she is
GRABBED
DRAGGED
REMOVED,
Removed from any hope of finding any kind of
happy place.

She could be the cause for her
missing
happy place.
"She has, through her choices,
purposely misplaced her happy place"

But it is easier to think this not the case.


He knows her.
In a way she wishes he did not.
But she still falls for the lure,
irrespective of her resort to
stay away
and
not fall
for the lure
again.

Acapella

I was walking, was living
My melody was acapella.
There's a beat I was missing
No tune or a scale I could play.

The sound in the distance
No orchestra playing together.
Like a boat out to sea,
The silence was too deafening!


So come and revive me
I can't feel my heartbeat
Just me surviving alone

Before you,
My whole life was acapella--
Now a symphony's
The only song to sing.
Before you,
My whole life was acapella--
Now a symphony's
The only song to sing.


Everything was the same
One color was just like the others
An assembly routine
My memories were all black and white
Till I stopped overthinking
Decided to draw back the curtains
And I cleared all the cobwebs
And began to let in the light

So come and revive me
I can't feel my heartbeat
Just me surviving alone

Before you,
My whole life was acapella
Now a symphony's
The only song to sing
Before you,
My whole life was acapella
Now a symphony's
The only song to sing

You are the drum in my heart beat
Bass and guitar lead
Stuck on the notes you play
My heart that you play on
Red like a crayon
I can't walk away


Before you,
My whole life was acapella
Now a symphony's
The only song to sing
Before you,
My whole life was acapella
Now a symphony's
The only song to sing

-- "Acapella" (Kellis)