I wish i was good enough

Why is it that when things go wrong people completely disregard the 10 good things that have happened and only see the 1 bad thing. Funny, isn't it.

Thanks for appreciating me and all the effort i've made for you. It feels really good to know that you'd rather go to your friends because they'll cheer you up; and ask somebody else for help with your english essay when you know that i'm so willing to help you.

I'm the best girlfriend ever, eh? I'm so good for you that you have to find happiness from other people who don't even care as much as i do.Why would you date someone who can't even make you happy, huh? Sounds like you're wasting your time to me.

I wish you'd just find someone else so that i don't have to keep getting hurt when you don't see all the things i do for you. I'm sure Mel would gladly take my place, maybe you should go out with her--and it's a plus too that on days where no one can make you smile, she can. Looks like a good option to me, mate.

Last time i checked, a boyfriend who loves his girlfriend wouldn't let such a small little thing get in the way of someone he absolutely adores. I hate all the tears i've ever cried for you and i wish that when things go wrong like today, and like they occasionally do, you'd see the greater picture--the picture where even though i'm not perfect i love you with all my heart and still try my best every single day. I may slip up occasionally and storm off, but if you loved me as much as you say you do, wouldn't you be forgiving and come after me because you'd never want to see the most amazing girl in the world, whom you love, run away?

I wish you'd love me no matter what and be patient with all my weaknesses. though you don't seem to see it, i try my best every single day and i'm constantly aware of and trying to overcome my weaknesses. I wish you'd see that.

Thank you ♥

What a bad blogger, i haven't posted in ages. Anyway.

Yesterday i was really really sick and we were meant to go shopping. So you came over to my house to pick me up but when you saw how sick i was you stayed home taking care of me. You were so sweet. I have a phobia of vomiting and so i was really scared, and i just couldn't think of a way out of it. But you were there to hold my hand and tell me that everything was going to be ok. It may sound corny, but i really needed you there--i don't know how i would've done it on my own. I felt so vulnerable because i showed you my fears and i was crying and i felt so helpless. But you just sat with me and held me and spoke gentle words of encouragement. You even helped me clean everything up (which is pretty gross :/ but i guess that's how much you love me). I can't even begin to express my appreciation for how grateful i am to you for all of your kindness and caring. I really didn't know how i was going to do it, but you were there and it made all the difference in the world. There aren't words adequate enough to express my gratitude for what you did for me yesterday ♥ Thank you.

♥

Wish it were that easy

I haven't heard this song for ages, and it came up on my playlist today and just made me cry. She makes it sound so easy.

Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Yeah...
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know

You'll make it
You'll make it
Just don't go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

-- "The Voice Within" Christina Aguilera