Dear John...

It's difficult for me to tell you this, and i hope you'll forgive me for what I'm about to say.

But I can't be with you anymore.
I love you, but at the same time i dislike you.
My happiest moments have been when i have been with you, but so have my saddest.
The more time i spend with you, the more i love you, but at the same time my vexation towards you increases so dramatically to the point that i can't stand being with you. The longer i am with you, the more problems we run into, and the more complex life becomes. The problem is that 'Us' creates more problems than there needs to be.

It's unfortunate and makes me heart-broken that something so good has to come to an end; and i regret letting things get this far because it makes it so much more difficult for me to say all of this.
We started out on one path but we've branched out into two separate paths that just keep getting further and further apart.
Oh how this pains my soul to give up something so good! You are a boy who isn't afraid of anything, who has a soft side and is not afraid to show it to me; someone who is handsome and funny, who loves me and protects me; someone who cares so much for my welfare, who tells me how he feels and encourages me to study; someone so perfect... Baby, you'd be the one, NO DOUBT, if you would only give me one thing: Take me to the temple.
But i guess that's something you're not willing to give me.

I've learnt a lot from you and i'm glad that you have been a chapter in my life.
I'll always remember you and there will always be a place in my heart for you.
I just wish we could have chosen our situation better, but the truth is: i will always waste your time because i will never give you what you want. likewise, you'll never give me what i want because you'll never accept the one thing that makes me happy. I honestly can't fathom a resolution to this problem.

An honourable man once said that "sacrifice is giving up something good for something better". I hope he is right.

Don't think that you're giving up. You're not. Sometimes walking away can be the solution. i'm so sorry that ive said all of this.

Though it's extremely painful to grasp, I guess it's time to move on to the next chapter in our lives.

I truly am sorry.

Love always,
Natalie