Long deep sigh. I've come to the end right now. I can't keep going on like this, i just can't. I'm sad everyday, i cry everyday, and i definitely think about how wrong i'm living life, everyday. It's probably ME who is the reason for Kate not wanting to talk to me, or my friendships just disintegrating, or my relationship with the Lord failing as well as, hopefully from tomorrow onwards, my relationship with the guy who has loved me more than anything else failing. Can we get a round of applause please. For me. For ruining everything. Thank you.
I'm so far away. So far away from where i should be. I want to go back home. If this goes on any longer my insides are going to be torn by all my unhappiness and apathy that i'm not going to need to kill myself, my body will do it for me. I feel wracked, twisted, squashed, you name it. The things that used to make me happy don't really anymore. The people i used to be friends with aren't friends anymore, the amazing person i used to be is not who i am now, i wish it was as simple as jumping down a hole like in super mario and just starting the level again. I want to die, i want this all to go away.
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